3 posts tagged “crazy”

There are two fairly consistent themes in my life that make me think that I'm probably just a bit of a paranoid schizophrenic.

1.  I get this ringing in my right ear sometimes, all of a sudden, that's real high pitched and intense for like five minutes, and I swear that it's like a wireless software update thing because I am a ROBOT, MAN.

2.  Sometimes I get the feeling that my life is like the Truman Show.  I say this because I swear that one of the actors that was in my life before has been recycled.

In other news, I got a tattoo, and it's pretty badass in a science/philosophy nerd kind of way.

I'm becoming more emo by the day.

First off, I think of the "tags" for these things like Rorsharch tests, and I just put whatever comes to mind in that shit.

Secondly, the end of the semester is upon me, and it's the weirdest sensation I've ever had.  Usually I'm freaking out about how little time there is left and how much shit I have to do, and how I don't have time to practice because there are so many damned concerts that I have to play in.  This semester, there is all of that, but I'm just numb to it, I guess.

This is the end of the penultimate semester of my undergraduate college experience.  Which is awesome and scary at the same time.

I think that, academically, this is going to be the worst semester I've had by far.  I'm not failing anything, but I've just had so many things going on that I've had to let a few things slip.  Like my attendance grade in my Russian class, or deadlines for papers and projects.

Trumpet-wise, I think I've made a lot of progress.  I'm making a better sound more consistently, and I feel like my musicianship has come a long way.  And also I find myself getting more and more impatient with mediocrity, which is always a sign of progress in my book.

I've decided to put off grad school for at least a year.  I'm not sure what I'm going to do until then other than practice my ass off, but I don't feel like it's the best thing for me until I can get some shit together, so I can make the best of that experience when I get there.

I have a busy couple of weeks coming up.

I <3 Richmond.

Do you think you can send some of your writers over to Nip/Tuck?  Just for a couple of weeks so they remember what it's like to write for normal people?

Thanks.

<3
Cole